The Power of Breath & Silence, my 10 Day Meditation Experience {Day 8}

I am very proud of myself to have made it this far and I hope each day had brought some light to your day.

I woke up feeling irritable, angry and annoyed. It’s not that I was annoyed at the world but I was angry at everyone who has wronged me. If only you heard the thoughts in my head; they were pissed as hell. To this day I still am putting the pieces together as to why I was so angry. There are many factors, one is that I was pissed off at myself for holding things back from family, friends, and relationships. I wasn’t my assertive self because I didn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings, but in all honestly I was hurting myself. Breakfast was horrible, being in the cafeteria with all those girls bumping into me; it seemed crowded than before. When girls bumped into me, I wanted to both punch them in the face and start beating them senseless or trip them. I was so angry I didn’t know what to do with myself. I wanted to scream but I couldn’t. I wanted to run away in hopes that it will go away (Running away from problems? Like that ever works.).


I decided to see the assistant teachers after my lunch break to ask why I was so angry. The teachers told me that this emotional bought was brought upon by the cell (or box) experience and to breathe through every angry thought. Of course, I cried because it was hard to breathe; this is the problem with many of us. We get angry or frustrated with each other or with our self and we forget to breathe. We are only a few breaths away from being peaceful.

I told the teachers that it’s not that I don’t want to make mistakes because I know that as a human I will keep making them.I just didn’t want to feel so miserable while making them. To that, my teachers they laughed.

I understand that mistakes I will make will not be intentional or without consequences in my emotions and mind. Even with that understanding, to myself, I sound like a terrible person because I’ve told myself so many stories to the contrary thinking they were all truth. I have a very creative imagination -- ha!

Lesson from Discourse

To learn to be aware of feelings and to remain well-balanced towards the imbalance of life or past, it becomes easy to keep your balance in external situations. The past cannot be changed but there can be control of the present by becoming the master of oneself.


“Knowing others is intelligence; knowing yourself is true wisdom. Mastering others is strength; mastering yourself is true power.” - Lao Tzu

“Life is a journey, not a destination.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

I’ve always liked the above quotes but I never really understood what they meant until this day. When you sit quietly things comes into perspective and you come to understand yourself and the world around you.

The Divine in me honors the Divine in you. I recognize my true essence in every soul I meet. I am you, You are me, and we are one. Namaste